I've had a few moments of self doubt lately I suppose it's partly because cercumstance it's nice to know Not only do my parents, friends and family back home believe in me but the creator of the universe believes in me too. Need to pinch myself a second did I just say that. I suppose it's largely to do with the fact that because to many people in my life try to box me in and Suss me out when really unless you've known me for a long long time I don't think you really know what I'm capable of doing. Aka getting out here for one thing.. How often do we feel like being curled up into a big bubble that we can't let anyone really know who we are because if we do it's the end of life we know it. Enough of that ramble time to get down to what I really wanted to say..
I been pondering for a while what the heck am I doing here then the switch flipped actually considering how long I've been here and what challenges I had to face like I wanted to travel oz so why am I moaning so much about having to move again this time I'm excited I didn't really feel like coming to cairns in the first place where I really wanted to go since day one was Melbourne and now I am. But what clicked was actually I can do anything i don't need people to push me on anymore so many times in my life have I lived around a large amount of people telling me I can't, I will never amount to anything, etc.. But actually I can, a lot of jobs ask for a i can do.. Attitude well I've got that now... But can do comes through not my own strength but God so I feel that I'm traveling on my own because I need to keep this can do attitude so once told me I believe in you and so does Jesus well matter of a fact the idea that God believes me kicks but.. Even better that you lot at home believe in me... Okay I've been tired a lot lately and missing home but I love the idea that actually that in those times I've felt Gods love surrounding me. Truth is I'm fighting my battle with God and What comes to mind that maybe I'm forgetting to put on my armor and stop listening to lies and live in the truth I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. I'm saying my prayers and I'm believe that whatever lies ahead it's for the good..
There's a song called I'm walking away from the troubles in my life I think possible Simon Webb from blue sung it I can't remember or maybe Craig David not a clue... But I'm living in the now and not looking a hindsight as my mum said to me the other day.. Hindsight is a wonderful thing.
So here's me believing in God, myself and what truths there are and I'm traveling not on my own but in the foot steps of my God!!!!
Miss you All... Love you All..
Rosie :D xxx