In considering the journey that is ahead in 40 days im excited to discover where it is that I well be living in australia. God has already begun to challenged me over the last couple of weeks I felt I wanted to share some thoughts with you. Over the last couple of years things have been extremely difficult and have had a massive affect on my relationship with Jesus. Over the time I've spent looking back in hindsight I don't think I could change anything because I feel I wouldnt be where I am right now in the current challenges that I face.

I'm being challenged in my faith specially in understanding healing in my life and other peoples lives. What does God want with me, if I struggle so much and if this person doesn't get healed or this person does. However I battle with this it makes me angry and frustrated with my relationship with God. However now is the time to dust of my feet as a friend once send to me. I'm hopping on a plane in just over 40 days time and I'm so excited for the new chapter in my life as I said before. However somewhere alone i wont be because in the depths of my heart some where in there i still can't know anything different that actually im not alone despite the umpteen times I say otherwise.

Now though as I look at the young people that I have come into contact with im completely challenged how my faith is not as big as there's. However in conversation with another friend this time in my life is the most challenging for my faith. I so hope than my nails can withstand the grip that I have as i cling to the cross.

However as i spoke about Sunday on my last time at SICF i really felt God gave me the message I had to speak to that church and also felt God was also speaking this message to me. Peter impossible he reminds me of me. One minuet he really believe Jesus was lord however later on he denies Jesus. Later regrets this massively and I in some ways tries to forget it later on after Jesus dies. But Jesus knows... however he shows peter grace when he ask Peter in John 21 do you love me? and peter replies you know I love you... Jesus responses by saying feed my sheep in which he asks peter this three times. When peter realises what Jesus is doing he doesn't feel worthy to be forgiven however Jesus gives him a calling again telling him to follow him and minster to the nations teaching what jesus taught him. In this he shows peter his grace and its not just peter he's speaking to its everyone. The challenge is that "Jesus calls the not good enough's" (Rob Bell) he picked murders, lies, thefts, sinners and the forgotten to take on the Missio Dei.

As to what God has asked me to go to Australia for I suppose I will discover this...  

I'm Good Enough For Jesus

Thanks for Reading

Much Love to you All

Rosie

The New Chapter, 

As many of you know im very much a big reader lately and enjoy a good book. I like when a chapter ends of the part of series on a TV ends and there’s always this buzz I find, to turn the page to a new chapter or a new series, discovering whats next. I personally enjoy then endings that have a gripping finale where somewhere along the line in the story the character goes through something life altering that just makes you want to read on. This is what I'm excited for in my own story or lets just say my part in Gods story. Now I’ve finished my studying for now and I’m at the end of a chapter in my life where i’ve got to wait to see what the call is next on my life. In some ways I feel the adventure to Australia will be a break from Youth Work and what I currently know and a chance to discover more about who I am as a person. I feel im sure everyone has those moments in there life where they seek to discover who they really are.

I feel like its time to burst the current bubble im in and fly down feet first into a new chapter in my adventure. Why Australia and why traveling you ask? Well i felt that for a longtime i really wanted to do some form of traveling and living and learning new cultures i felt i could just go somewhere without being completely confident that it was where God and where I wanted to be. I really felt for the last free years being 24 and having no ties to anything at home I felt that it was the op tune moment to step into a new world and discover that actually the world is my oyster as the proverb says. I feel for me to do this trip will be a chance to me to gain independence and discover myself and God further as to what actually will happen only God knows.

I'm extremely proud of my own achievements so far and thats saying a lot coming from me. I really feel like dispute how far away I've been God has still had a hand of everything I've done. Even the path I take hasn't been easy. When I was standing on the edge of the ramp going up to receive my degree in june all i could think of that feel of I need to pinch myself just to check im still not dreaming. and now smacking my face on the ground in front of me. I wanted to be colorful and glamours for the day but i suppose theres a price to pay for beauty. But after taking the first step and being completely confused as to where I was going the dress was worth wearing and thank goodness Im still standing. When finally getting the end of the stage it kind of felt like that was the hardest part of the whole four years i worked my butt of studying. But somehow i did the simplest but scariest task ever walking across a stage.

Next step or leap is traveling on my own to new parts of the world I've never been before. I think im joining the members of the law family that have the traveling bug.. I think I've made many long lists of things I need to remember to take or to do while I'm traveling out to Oz...

stay tuned for whats gonna be happening. I will try my best to keep you updated as much as my fingers will allow me... sorry if all my spelling extra is difficult or my wording is hard to understand but it comes with the terrority of reading a blog written by me. bear with me :D :D


Love you all

Rosie xx