In considering the journey that is ahead in 40 days im excited to discover where it is that I well be living in australia. God has already begun to challenged me over the last couple of weeks I felt I wanted to share some thoughts with you. Over the last couple of years things have been extremely difficult and have had a massive affect on my relationship with Jesus. Over the time I've spent looking back in hindsight I don't think I could change anything because I feel I wouldnt be where I am right now in the current challenges that I face.

I'm being challenged in my faith specially in understanding healing in my life and other peoples lives. What does God want with me, if I struggle so much and if this person doesn't get healed or this person does. However I battle with this it makes me angry and frustrated with my relationship with God. However now is the time to dust of my feet as a friend once send to me. I'm hopping on a plane in just over 40 days time and I'm so excited for the new chapter in my life as I said before. However somewhere alone i wont be because in the depths of my heart some where in there i still can't know anything different that actually im not alone despite the umpteen times I say otherwise.

Now though as I look at the young people that I have come into contact with im completely challenged how my faith is not as big as there's. However in conversation with another friend this time in my life is the most challenging for my faith. I so hope than my nails can withstand the grip that I have as i cling to the cross.

However as i spoke about Sunday on my last time at SICF i really felt God gave me the message I had to speak to that church and also felt God was also speaking this message to me. Peter impossible he reminds me of me. One minuet he really believe Jesus was lord however later on he denies Jesus. Later regrets this massively and I in some ways tries to forget it later on after Jesus dies. But Jesus knows... however he shows peter grace when he ask Peter in John 21 do you love me? and peter replies you know I love you... Jesus responses by saying feed my sheep in which he asks peter this three times. When peter realises what Jesus is doing he doesn't feel worthy to be forgiven however Jesus gives him a calling again telling him to follow him and minster to the nations teaching what jesus taught him. In this he shows peter his grace and its not just peter he's speaking to its everyone. The challenge is that "Jesus calls the not good enough's" (Rob Bell) he picked murders, lies, thefts, sinners and the forgotten to take on the Missio Dei.

As to what God has asked me to go to Australia for I suppose I will discover this...  

I'm Good Enough For Jesus

Thanks for Reading

Much Love to you All

Rosie